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Conditioned responses: Have you been conditioned to feel judged, or guilt etc that has spilled over into your exjw life?

by Diogenesister in

this youtuber, an exjw and psychologist, may be familiar to some of the old guard.. i'm posting for newer members really.

yet still, despite being out some time, it was a shock for me to realise that some of the crippling guilt i have felt over so much of my life, even long after being awake, was due to the dominant "conditioned response" i felt as a believer - guilt.. guilt that i could never do enough.

guilt that i was responsible for the life of anyone i didn't preach to...anyone i may have stumbled, anything i did that wasn't caring for the needs of others.. even my job i choose to fit in with trying to expunge the guilt i felt at not meeting the needs of others.

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Thank you, Diogenesister, for this thread. I'm sorry for the distress caused you and others here as well.

The application of Old Testament scripture to our supposed obligation towards Jehovah was over the top. You must warn the wicked or die with them. You and other posters said it all. I can only add that when the WT/Awake! subscriptions were the offer of the month, I couldn't concentrate fully on work because I was in a turmoil over offering all my fellow employees the double sub.

Their lives depended on my getting the magazines into their hands.

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Leaving My Religion

by compound complex in

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a cool sense of tranquility calms my troubled spirit.. i emerge slowly from deeply entrenched nightmares and proceed into gentle reverie, into quiet wakefulness.

youthful ideals, embodied in vaporous form on the street below, are a black reminiscence.

they are certain to return as a want, an untold want, having neither name nor substance but providing a niggling dig that skewers my soul.

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Thanks, dear humbled! You words always cheer me up.

Blessings and peace.

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Leaving My Religion

by compound complex in

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a cool sense of tranquility calms my troubled spirit.. i emerge slowly from deeply entrenched nightmares and proceed into gentle reverie, into quiet wakefulness.

youthful ideals, embodied in vaporous form on the street below, are a black reminiscence.

they are certain to return as a want, an untold want, having neither name nor substance but providing a niggling dig that skewers my soul.

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Thanks, scratchme1010 and tiki:

Close to home, tiki, about a child taking it all in seriously -- me -- and those not. One of my children never did, from early on. scratchme said the same in his story.

With gratitude.

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Interview with an Apostate - Scratchme1010

by scratchme1010 in

for what it's worth:.

tell us a little about yourself and your family.. i am one of 7 children in my family, three boys, three girls and me.

yes, i'm right in the middle, and i'm the pink sheep of the family (or at least the official one).

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Thank you, scratchme1010:

What you have shared resonates on many levels.

Blessings and peace.

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Leaving My Religion

by compound complex in

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a cool sense of tranquility calms my troubled spirit.. i emerge slowly from deeply entrenched nightmares and proceed into gentle reverie, into quiet wakefulness.

youthful ideals, embodied in vaporous form on the street below, are a black reminiscence.

they are certain to return as a want, an untold want, having neither name nor substance but providing a niggling dig that skewers my soul.

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A COOL SENSE OF TRANQUILITY calms my troubled spirit.

I emerge slowly from deeply entrenched nightmares and proceed into gentle reverie, into quiet wakefulness. Youthful ideals, embodied in vaporous form on the street below, are a black reminiscence. They are certain to return as a want, an untold want, having neither name nor substance but providing a niggling dig that skewers my soul. I shut out the noise in my head: irrational thought, excessive thinking. I'm through with the insanity of earlier times.

I see but darkly my amorphous reflection and sense it is a phantom, not the real me. From behind scudding clouds appears an awakened, gracious moon. She illumes my way, showing inner turmoil in a new light.

This black shadow of the walking dead has disappeared.

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Learning New Words

by compound complex in

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greetings, fellow lexophiles:.

last night, i watched a cool road movie, the trip, with steve coogan and rob brydon.

they were counseled by steve's dad to take an "anticlockwise" route home, rather than the clockwise one steve had proposed.

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Thanks, everyone, for contributing.

An egg is fryable.

Good planting soil is friable.

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Is there evidence about Jaracz?

by Gorbatchov in

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read some reply's about jaracz being a child abuser.. is there any evidence about it?.

g..

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Half banana:

The thread about the group photo . . .

STILL TOTALLY ADD - Your statement about the D.O. doing this, " Half an hour after I went to bed he would come into my room and turn the light on and just stare at me for a few minutes then turn the light off and leave without saying a word. "

https://www.jehovahs-witness.com/topic/6606710744547328/co-asked-everyone-20-years-old-younger-group-photo

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